in our shoes

Wednesday, November 29, 2006,8:43 PM

..she is the dearest person to me ever..the closest person to my heart..my pillar of strength..pls bring her home..i need her more than i think i do..pls..

..she is the one who gave birth to me & have been through lots with me for the past 23 years..nothing ever escapes her motherly instincts..even when i try to hide my feelings from her, her concern often weave their way to the roots of my problem..somehow,she always has the solutions to my problems..thick & thin..ups & downs..u name it..we've been through it..never the angelic daughter she wished she had..still,she stood by me,against all odds..never once giving up hope & belief in me..

..now its her turn..her time of crisis..& i want to stand by her & go through all this crap with her..but how do i?..when she's away from me..how can i be her strength when she's no longer beside me..

..pls see her home..safely..pls..i really need her & as much,i know at this point of time,she needs me too..

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Tuesday, November 28, 2006,1:14 AM

..WHY DO MEN CHEAT..

*& i'm NOT talking abt khalil..khalil loves me & the feeling's mutual*

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Friday, November 24, 2006,7:15 PM

my darling su..slamat pengantin baru..i am like soo excited for you..cant wait to see you guys in a bit..hehe..mcm aku plak yg kawin..i'm sure u'l look gorgeous..

so here's to my beautiful fren,the bride..may u have a blessed marriage & cheers to a walk down eternal bliss..*kiss*

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Thursday, November 23, 2006,1:17 AM

I just realised something..that babies would outgrow their clothes quite quickly & purchasing branded apparels for them would actually be a waste of money..eventho i just love how this little cutie looked in Ralph Lauren..but since it would be a waste, why not get sumthing for the mummy instead?..say a Coach bag..?? *grins* ..hey its to carry the diapers..?

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Wednesday, November 22, 2006,9:52 PM

As of 22nd November 2006, my precious is 14 weeks old & i cant believe that i could actually see my baby's gender through the ultrasound scan..& yes, my precious is a B.O.Y..yay!!!..not that i would have minded a girl but i really wanted a boy as my first child..

Now that my precious's gender has been made known to me, the next step for me is to find a suitable name for him..i wouldnt want my boy to actually grow up with old-fashioned names like Ali or Ahmad or wat..Dont get me wrong..I am not prejudiced towards these names but I would definitely prefer my children to grow up with "nicer-sounding" names & of course, the beautiful names must come with beautiful meanings..

I was thinking Ilhan Mansiz..*smirk*..& hopefully my boy takes after the handsome Turkish player..However to-date, i found out that there is no meaning for either Ilhan or Mansiz..Its just an arab sounding name with no particular meaning to it..absurd right?..khalil wants the child to have "haziq" as his second name but i, dont particularly like the ring of it..& in the first place i dont even know what "haziq" means..

So ppl,now that you know the baby's a boy..start saving up for Baby Osh Kosh cos i sooo love the clothes there & ouh, i wont mind Zara Kids or Levi Kids or even Ralph Lauren Kids for that matter.. :p

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Tuesday, November 21, 2006,1:32 AM

i need a break.i desperately need a break..from everything..i am stressing myself silly over my pregnancy & the upcoming finances & work & all things related..i need a break..even if i'm not allowed to travel, can i just have a day retreat..pls..

i was supposed to getaway to bangkok & kl in dec with some gfs but due to me being prone to puking,i wont be able to make it for this trip..then i planned a day retreat to batam with anna just to laze ard & pamper ourselves silly at the day spa of either Batam View Resort or Holiday Inn Batam..yet thats not going to happen either cos Khalil wont allow me to go on the basis that i'm expecting & that place is dirty & dangerous..i wanted to go to night safari & even there,i'm forbidden..the ONLY thing that i was allowed to go & was looking forward to,Puteri Gunung Ledang The Musical,the $95 tix were sold out in a matter of days..leaving only the $10 & $30 restricted view tix..who in the right frame of mind would actually purchase those???!!!!!

Just what do ppl expect me to be doing these coming 6 months of pregnancy then 3 months of confinement???..yea,its a damn correct term la..i'm super confined can..!!!

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Friday, November 17, 2006,7:11 AM

i just realized that i have been married like four months & have yet to post the pic of my beautiful wedding..if i may say so myself..

so here i leave you peeps with some of the pics during my event..enjoy & have a good weekend,yea..

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

..awaiting for the solemnization ceremony to begin
my beloved family
signing on the doted lines..hence Mrs Khalil

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

my new family

us & the sri warisan performers
my lovely family
after a looonng day we finally cut the cake
my long time bestie,shik & lovely nanie

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Saturday, November 11, 2006,6:06 AM

..anna & i had earlier arranged to meet up for dinner before her boyfie,hairi, gets off work..she brought a fren,liz & whilst waiting for some of her other frens to arrive, us being self-proclaimed tai tais decided to pay DFS a visit..we went straight to the bags section..lo & behold,coach had a new collection of bags can..& i so lurve this particular tote..*hint*

..dinner's next & it was a blast..a much needed evening of madness with just girls(& ouh..a guy)..i had the honour of meeting anna's other frens namely,inah & shireen(shireen brought a guy fren with her who ended up paying for our dinners)..qoute unqoute, kalau tahu order lebih..nyehahahaha..anna's frens were a bunch of great fun..every minute were filled with stupid jokes & outbursts of laughs..as soon as anna mentioned to them that i was expecting,shireen & inah, stood up from their seats at the dinner table to catch a glimpse of my tummy..sorry babes,the tummy's not out just yet..hehe..

..after dinner,we took a walk down orchard whilst waiting for anna's boyfie..we went to topshop to browse & upon hairi's arrival,hairi,anna & i went to F21 for anna's shopping spree..she tried on a top & a pair of pants & ended up not getting either cos she claimed the top made her look pregs & the pants buttless..sheesh..& i thought i was THE fussy shopper..

..heeren was next as i needed to drop by newurbanmale to get a pair of sandals for my beloved brother..he wanted them for his birthday & i ended up getting him those sandals & a fossils wallet as well..hope you liked them little bro..

..afterwards,i headed for home & so did anna & hairi..yesterday was a good start towards the long break that i'm going to have..& come Sunday,i'll be starting my baking frenzy...brownies,muffins & pavlovas...yummm....

till then..

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Thursday, November 09, 2006,11:56 PM

..if anyone ever thought that after getting hitched,she can stay at home,shake legs,go for afternoon tea,mani & pedi,shop w/o a care in the world..unless ure married to an oil sheikh or a rich tycoon, u can continue DREAMING..like thats ever gonna happen..

..my perfect life after marriage is to ensure that my house is spotlessly clean,prepare gastronomical delicacies for my beloved husband, send & fetch my adorable kids to & from school,high teas with my other mumsy friends,weekly meet-ups for mani & facials,shopping,bla bla bla..u get the picture..thats all but just a dream..i have woken up & smelt the coffee..eventhough khalil earns enough for both of us to live comfortably w/o me having to work,i would like my own income to spend as & how i wish to..

..do u have any idea just how expensive a married life can get..car instalments,insurance,household bills,monthly groceries,toiletries,all those dinner-outs..& that does not even include one's married life once pregnancy strucks..those monthly gynae sessions,ultrasounds,vitamins,the delivery package & what about after birth?..sometimes i shudder at the mere thought of all these expenses..if i were to be a stay home mum, i am positively sure that we would be able to manage..but i would still want to go to faraway places for my vacations & all that extravagant shopping..& i guess thats where i would have to work..to ensure that i have all this additional income to splurge on myself & my kids..

..so i guess,my long time ambition of being a tai tai would have to wait..(tat goes to u too,anna)..until khalil struck gold or i discovered that i am the grandchild of some sultan & have inherited a huge amount of money..and unless thats ever gonna happen,there's always those reality shows where you can win $1,000,000..

..till i achieve my ambitions,i leave you with these gorgeous lingerie which i would lurveeee to lay my hands on..

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

..when i got home from work yesterday, i received a shocking news..my dad got injured..& it was not any ordinary injury..its his head that got bandaged just to stop blood from oozing out..but alhamdullilah,the wound was not that deep to require stitches..if the doctor actually tell him that stitches were required on the surface of his skull,i am sure it would have sent shivers down his spine,knowing just how terrified he was of needles..

..he got injured at work..his stupid boss had asked him to clear some stuff outside her condo..like as though my dad was her personal slave..ugghhh..well,back to the story..as he was clearing the outside of the condo,the latter swung open her window pane & hit my dad in the head..bllod gushed out and like a person with no conscience,that stupid woman potrayed no reactions..offering no form of help,she just asked my dad to go to the nearest GP to seek treatment..like hello,the poor man got injured in his head,no less,because of u can!!!..i'm not some money-grubbing twit who takes advantage of such circumstances,but to offer no compensation,not even medical is too much rite?..if it was up to me,a lawsuit would already be on the way..stupid cina-indon-makan babi..!!!!

..my dad & i see things differently..coonsidering i was his one & his only rebellious daughter..eversince i was young i was never close to him..his methods of disciplining me,were not to my favour..to me,he was this grave-looking man who rarely smiled at me yet could get very friendly with my younger brother & my cousins..his unjust punishments all added on to the rift between us..more often than not,he would give me his scowling face & me, my couldnt-care less attitude..we could even end up not speaking to each other for days..still he is my one & my only dad..& although i rarely say this..i love him to bits..& despite his no-nonsense aura,i know he loves me too..

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>

Friday, November 03, 2006,7:36 PM

..Just when i thought that Tuesday was my last day, my HR director requested that i stick ard just a little bit until she finds a replacement..on ordinary accounts, i would have just given her my couldnt-care-less attitude,but given the kind hearted soul that i am,*ehem*..i agreed to help her out for about a week or so..

..remember my unappreciative colleague which i mentioned in one of my earlier entry?..well,she got on my nerves yet again yesterday & believe me,if i was back in my sch days, my palm would have just gone flying across her cheek..but i've grown up to be a civilised person & thus would not succumb to such actions..however,i did give her the ultimate stare & just stormed out of my santuary & into the conference room where i finished up my work..somehow my other colleagues could just sensed my angst & they tried to cheer me up..but the afternoon was ruined for me..& i was just looking forward for the working hrs to end so that i could proceed to vivo city..

..vivo city?..i made my virgin trip there on Wednesday & goodness me,i think i'm in love..mango..zara..topshop..f21..diva..& i could just rant on & on..& the best part 1/3 of the stores on level 2 were selling baby & maternity stuff..now i have a reason to go & shop..not for me..but for the baby..nyehahahaha..my reason for being in vivocity yesterdaywas not to shop but to collect a file which i left at coffeebean on my previous trip & thank my luck stars,the staff found it..

..my back has been aching these few days & my vomitting has taken a toll for the worse..ugghh..i'm like so tired of muntah-ing can..just hope for this phase to be over & done with & i pray that this bout of vomitting wouldnt last the whole 9 mths..!!

>>>and its just us.... and our shoes.>